The Awkward "are you happy?" Question

Two days ago, it was quite an usual morning when my favorite movie-mate and I were watching this really interesting movie called, Hector and the Search for Happiness. Basically, we watched the first half of the movie the night before. It was time we finished it for good.

So, we set to watch the ecstatic psychiatrist on his unplanned,impulsive journeys around the World, stopping by his old friends here and there. Only to ask a question which everyone seemed wanting to avoid ,however, as if subtly obliged to answer when confronted with.

Are you happy?

                                      What makes you happy?

                                                                                          What is happiness to you?

No two person answered this question the same way. But everybody had an answer that echoed the kind of Life they were living or wanting to live. Happiness had many interpretations worldwide, and Hector,the protagonist, jotted all of them down in his medium-sized leather notebook. It was a mesmerizing movie with a number of mind-blowing quotes, which are compellingly true as well.

The end of the movie left me speechless,and my mood switches automatically switched onto 'CONTEMPLATIVE mode'. But on the other side, my thoughtful friend sneakily put his thinking cap ON. Haha. 😄 Though we connect a lot on thoughts otherwise.

Much to my surprise and dread actually, he put on Hector's shoes and started asking me the unusually difficult question. " What do you think happiness is?" Always wanting to avoid this question, and being asked only a few times by even fewer people, I was lost for a moment. In my clueless,thoughtless silence. His insistence grew until at one point I blurted out timidly: 'Happiness is happiness.'

Overwhelmed. My mind started wondering frantically. After experiencing more than 20 years of "I'M BREATHING" moments, I didn't know how to answer a simple question like that.

To hear this 'Are you happy?' question from someone feels like a deep breach of privacy. At times. It feels more intimate than being asked,'Are you in love?'

Admit it or not. We all hate it. Because we think too much.We go insane worrying if our voices would sound exactly the we 'want to sound'. Then, we put on a calculative smile and utter a dazzlingly superficial: " oh yes." Do we hold the courage to look in the eyes of the asking person,and answer a confident "Yes"? Even I couldn't look if I had to.

In the end though, I did answer him. Not my with my mouth. What my voice hesitated to channel, my heart took over and it flowed through my fingers. And whatever I told him were only little, insignificant, or maybe immature observations that I had...but my feelings were helplessly intertwined with those words... those words were 'me'. 

Here's how happiness looks like in the eyes of a simple Asian girl, in her early twenties, with absolutely limited experiences in Life :

Happiness is a journey! 

It's showing what you truly feel inside whenever you feel it. Without wasting time over what others may think...😊

Happiness is loving everyone without any self-interest from a place of respect. Happiness is being who you truly are..staying happy with whatever you have and trying to make others smile...😊

Happiness is protecting your innocence and remaining innocent no matter how the world may try to ruin you...😊

Happiness is simple...no second thoughts..😊

Happiness is not a greed to be happy..but when you're happy, happiness is to treat it like a gift...😊

Happiness is to have a pure heart and a beautiful mind...no matter how dirty the World maybe.😊

Happiness is seeing beauty in everything and everyone...

Happiness is accepting everyone is different but we all have the capacity to be good..to do a little better than we have done before...

Happiness is peace...😇

Happiness is forgiving...😅

Happiness is dedicating yourself for the work and the people you love..😁

Happiness is hope...💙💚💛💜💗💞

I've read a great book in my Fall'16 semester break, Way of the Peaceful Warrior, by Dan Millman , where it says:

The journey is what brings us happiness,not the destination.

And ever since, my expectations towards finding happiness has greatly changed. I realized how obliged we are all to be 'happy', and being happy requires no special reason. Every moment that we spend could turn into a 'happy one' if we only remind ourselves one thing (quoting from the book again):

The place is HERE.The time is NOW.

That's pretty much all for today 😁 I'm ecstatic to be writing my blog after 4 dreadfully long years of writer's blocks. Happiness is a simple formula which creates wonders when you truly believe in it. Trust me!

 Let's practice HAPPINESS and spread it around! In this dark times, we all need to share our lights, and what better way to do it than big,warm,happy smiles? 

Tomorrow

Tomorrow

Dear him, who longs to see me smile,

Tell me not, may he

There is no tomorrow. . .

And truth may it not be

For I’d merely feel hollow

Dear one, who lightens my heart

From the distance, with a touch so subtle

I would only smile. . . .

For there is a tomorrow, yet

My impending hour is your tomorrow!

They say: live large, live wrong

‘Like there’s no tomorrow’

But, dear him, would he tell me to?

Live bit by bit, live it right

At today’s end tomorrow must follow

So save that breath, and sing your song

Dear him, evoker of nameless emotions

Ought he to glimpse what’s veiled within?

The last time he heard her cries

It was rain. . . . . . .

But if tomorrow unwinds in his eyes

May her melodic laughter transcend illusions?

Your playful wink is my tomorrow!

Why say, darling, no tomorrow?

When today scarcely suffices us. . . . .

Yet thousand miles of farness left to span

And hearts of coldness to condense…

Won’t you promise not to linger sorrow?

When your fingers shield my eyes,

As closer you come, and love is your voice

Sweet whispers echoing off the air

“Tomorrow’s no more a caprice”

Then I will sever all my ties

Come to you, descending the stairs of cloud

No tiara of monsoon on my hair

I’ll be your unadorned princess

Wearing just one smile. . .

Tomorrow may find her

Inseparably intertwined

In his tender arms

May tomorrow come on ever. . .

Senorita Enchantress

04/04/13

~The Last~

The Last

Last hours fly away, last words linger

Last time you looked into my eyes

My last thoughts were a blunder

All I wanted to hear was ‘See You Soon’

But you only said ‘Goodbye’

Your last footfalls still echo in my ears

Our last laughter, sweet ardent kisses

Last moment of a rapturous embrace

Etched in the canvas of my heart

They last as deathless memoirs. . . .

Yet last evenings together ended

In sudden, wild storms

Trampling my secret wish:

“If only we lasted. . . .”

Adoring fingers lastly stroking my face

When you breathed last in my hair

Our worlds diffusing into a fuzzy backdrop

Four artlessly entwined arms

Your swift, soft whispers in my eager ear

Last step on the spiraling stairway

Where you finally halted to glance back

At my forlorn beckoning to say

Your unsaid farewell . . .

And climbing backward to kiss me awake



Yet one breathless twilight witnessed

Us, hiding our gory daggers

And audaciously parting ways

Guilty of a love, tragically murdered

Last hours flew by, but last words

Like your last breath on my neck

Lingered not. . . .

(...Inspired by a true story ~<3>

Senorita Enchantress

02/24/2013

But what , then , is Life ?

But what ,then,  is 'Life' ?

The purpose of Life is a 'life of purpose'.

Life is a long wait; a lonely bed
Always waking on your own
Dwelling amid a maddening crowd
Yet feeling home alone . . . .

Life is writing a book . . .
Knowing your perfect beginning
But where to go from there ?
 Whose crux is its ending. . .

Life is signing treaties with what’s ‘lifeless’
Donning a veil of indifference. . . . .
When behind a facade of  ecstatic laughter
Lies that tear-stained visage
It is flawless pretense . . . . 

Life is a sudden , profound downpour
From a cloudless, sunny afternoon sky
Soaking yourself in the sweet rain
Only to remain achingly dry . . . . .

Life is going back to ‘normal’
Following old , smudgy footsteps
Never  treading on the unsullied mud
Warily advancing ,not being reckless

It’s an unending quest. . . . .
Of  fathoming the unfathomable
Yet pondering like a layman
But what, then , is ‘Life’ ?

Life is hunting down the Holy Grail
Of  subjective truth . . . . .
Armored protectively in a chain-mail
Sewn sardonically with lies.


Life is smelling dead roses
As they die their brief deaths,
Uncared, in crystalline vases
Yet to feel no regret . . . . .

Life is reading between the lines
Scrutinizing evey comma and full stop
Recognizing ‘deceit’ hidden in beautiful words
Before exclamation catches you off guard
Where innocence is followed by fines.

Life is a wild goose chase . . .
Going round and round a maze
Far out of reach from the center
Then halfway down meeting a stranger

Life is losing, and getting lost
Murdering your ardent desires. . .
Trampling long-cherished dreams
Only to be at an ‘alien somewhere’. . .

It’s a villainous mystery........
Whoever prides himself  to have resolved
At nightfall , in appalling secrecy,
 Asks himself: ‘But what,then, is Life ?’


@SenoritaEnchantress (17/02/2013)

My First Song Cover =)

 Hey everyone,

This is my first attempt to cover the famous gothic-rock band Evanescence's song My Immortal, originally sung by Amy Lee. Both Amy Lee and Evanescence are my most favourite musician/band . :) I don't think I sound even 30% close to her great singing , but I tried my best to keep the music & lyrics in place . Any errors made should be gladly pointed out.
The following link directs to my Facebook page, where you watch see the vidoe . Click! Don't forget to leave me your feedbacks :D

So Enjoy ! :)

My Immortal -Evanescence (Cover by Senorita Enchantress)

A Silent Confession

 A Silent Confession



To Him - a dear friend , a musician & a wild man I've known from the Sea...

 

What if another day passes by?

Recalling your luscious fragrance

Intoxicating my senses

What if tonight yet again….
I stroll down the deserted shore

of our beautifully immortal memories?

Why would you accuse me

if I run blindfolded towards a vast, sleeping ocean?

And drown myself in nostalgia….

What if tomorrow I can bear no longer?

This inexplicable separation, the unbroken silence

Oh, why would you leave me alone

if never I can let go of you?

If I keep the fire of my love ignited

If at every dawn break I follow your footsteps

Just to reach you once more….

Why would it be wrong?

I have lived a thousand lies

Just to escape from the glare of Truth…

Spent sleepless a thousand wintry nights

Looking everywhere for you

I have dreamt your beloved face

On many midsummer’s dreams

And drenched myself in tears of loss…

Why are you in a maddening rush?

To break our bond of unending passion...

Forget old promises before they reach completion

My dearest love, oh

why won’t you let time linger….?

When I can endure no matter the pain
When I can wait for an eon more

Why would you now end it all?

I have lied a thousand times

Just to hold you back for one more day

Suffered silently through the night

As I cradled you to sleep in my arms

For one last time

I have woken up lonely the next day

Alone on this bed where you once slept

And pinched myself in disbelief

I desperately wished it was a bad dream

What if another day passes by?

As I wait patiently for your return

With your farewell note engraved in my heart

What if I always believe no matter what?

That suddenly a miracle could occur…

Why won’t you still come back

to soothe my agonizing wounds….?

I will wear new masks of falsehood

To erase your memories forever…

But no longer shall I hide from the truth

How bitter it might seem

I don’t feel cold anymore

The warmth can’t touch my soul

Everyday until you’re here…

I am numb, achingly sore!

Senorita Enchantress

10th August, 2012